Radiant!

Before my radiation treatments began I knew a little bit about what to expect. Having gone through this with Maddy many years ago, I was familiar with some aspects. I knew about the "tattoos" that I'd get to assist with lining up the machine (Those side ones HURT!). I knew the treatments themselves wouldn't take long. But, since my treatment area was different than his, and it's been 22 years, there were some questions about side effects and the number of treatments needed.

As I write this I am 14 treatments down and the side effects have been mild. I have not started glowing in the dark, so that's a plus! I only have 1 treatment for the entire area left and then I'll have 5 targeting my scar. Overall, this has not been too bad. The staff has been great and the ladies doing the treatments are fabulous!

I have friends who are currently undergoing cancer treatments. Some have been doing chemo, radiation, and drug therapy for years. I cannot compare my experience to theirs. Their battles are more intense and difficult than I can imagine. I have also had friends and relatives who fought bravely but eventually lost the battle.

Cancer sucks!

As I have been receiving treatments the word "radiant" has come to mind many times. When I hear that word, my first thought is Wilbur and Charlotte from "Charlotte's Web". Now, don't misunderstand; I do not want a spider above me spinning words, or doing anything for that matter! (Actually, after the last few months she would probably write "some pig" above me!)

To me, radiant means something that shines from within. That may be a literal light or a glowing personality. Throughout this process I have tried to keep a positive outlook. When I go in for my appointments I smile (although with the mask they can't see it), talk to the staff, and even thank the radiation techs when I leave. I choose the attitude I use to fight this. I decided to be positive, to be a light for others to see. I want others to know that this is not going to get me down.

That inner light that I try to let shine doesn't come from anything I do; it comes from God. I pray daily for strength, for the treatments to work, for no, or only slight, side effects, and for me to be a positive influence for others. I don't know how I would get through this without His guidance and comfort.

Let God shine through you no matter what situation you may be in.